Honest, It Does Snow

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A Whirlwind

Lately my mind has been swimming with old memories, I am not sure what started all of this. Of course you never have good memories swirling in your head. It is always the bad memories, the memories you wish you could bury away in a deep dark place and never think of again. The kind of memory that shapes the way you react and behave now. A nightmare if you will.

As I am getting older, I am realizing, these memories that haunt my thoughts at night while I am lying in bed, have shaped my attitude towards life and my trust for other people. I am the kind of person, now, that if I see you I will know instantly if you are treacherous or not. If I will like you or not. It is very weird it is almost like a distrust was enabled in me that can smell a “bad person” a mile away. Perhaps I was very naive as a youth and that is why things panned out for me the way they did. I trusted everyone and everything, thanks to that “learned mistake” I will never be the same again.

I was robbed of my youth, my innocence. It was something that was gone in an instance and leaves the kind of hole in you, from which it is impossible to recover. 

I guess it is one of those things that you yourself have to go through to really understand.  

Mrs. Meany Pants

Yep that’s  me, today is my day. I am in the shittiest mood. I hate everyone and everything. I am in “one of those moods,” I suppose I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. So sue me.

Sometimes in life when you are in “one of those moods” it is really just your true feelings emerging. You may regret what you said the next day, but the damage is done. You have already turned in to super-bitch and rubbed your shitty vibe all over everyone you’ve talked to. It is good to have days like these from time to time. I think after noon I will be okay and back to my normal happy self. But for now I am contemplating taking a half day and saying screw everyone.

Things I “love” to do:

  1. Fight with laundry basket while trying to heave it out of the closet.
  2. Fry Pork Chops, only to realize after they were cooked and on the table that they had gone bad.
  3. Throwing away Pork Chops that I just took the time to make.
  4. Eating “side items” for dinner.
  5. Standing outside in the middle of the night with 110mph wind gusts so my little princesses can go pee.

And I Died Of Embarrassment…

The past couple of days a lady that I work with, happens to also live at the end of my street and I have been giving her a ride to work. 

Yesterday we cracked up laughing the whole way there and back. This morning we started cracking up laughing again and talking about my Sugarland CD that is playing etc. I asked her if she heard the song Stay. She said, “no is it on there?”  I said, “yeah do want to hear it.”  She said “sure, turn it up.” So we listened to that song and the next song came on.  

I just couldn’t control my urge to sing.

I love singing and my brain is programmed that driving in the car equals singing.

 So she yells, “You go girl, you can really sing.”  I started dying laughing. She said “No, I am serious, you can really sing” I said “Well, thank you” (All the while I am dying laughing.) So then she makes song requests so that I will sing more Sugarland. She was cracking me up.

We get to work and she announces to everyone that “Heather can really sing.” I am thinking be quite stop telling people! Now everyone wants me to sing for them! No absolutely not! I refuse to sing infront of people I have to look at everyday.  I was about to die from embarassment. I guess I don’t take compliments very well.

Everyone also thinks I should try out for American Idol. My response to that is they don’t accept fat girls.

Meme

Thanks, girlymama.  

1. Do you like the looks and content of your blog?

For the most part, I sometimes wish that I could “let loose” about my true feelings on things. I am not sure that I am ready to put it all out there yet.

2. Does your family know about your blog?

My family knows that I have a blog but as far as I know they do not have the address to go and read it.

3. Can you tell your friends about your blog?

Yes, I wouldn’t think we were friends if I couldn’t.

4. Do you just read the blogs of those who comment on your blog?

No, I look at other blogs but I can never get really attached to many other blogs just yet.

5. Did your blog positively affect your mind?

It is not an epiphany,  it is a online journal like device. I would have to say no.

6. What does the number of visitors to your blog mean?

I could care less.

7. Do you imagine what other bloggers look like?

Occasionally

8. Do you think blogging has any real benefit?

Some blogs maybe, probably not mine.

9. Do you think that the blogosphere is a stand alone community separated from the real world?

Some people treat it that way, but I would have to say no.

10. Do some political blogs scare you? Do you avoid them?

No, but they do annoy me at times because people are such idiots.

11. Do you think criticizing your blog is useful?

No.

12. Have you ever thought what would happen to your blog in case you died?

Not until now, I guess it would just sit here.

13. Which blogger has had the greatest impression on you?

I would say fancythis, she has me hooked.

 14. Which blogger do you think is the most similar to you?

fancythis, I mean we have been friends since we were in Nursery.

15. Name a song you want to listen to.

Sugarland-Stay

Part Duo

So I broke down and called the dentist yesterday due to tooth continuing to throb. They said to just come on in. I leave work and head on over there. As I am driving there I get a SPEEDING TICKET!!! I can’t help but think: Mother F***** my mouth is hurting and now I am getting a f****** ticket. I  just want to run this a******  over!

But I digress.

So I finally get to the dentist and she looks at my tooth and takes an X-ray and says that now I need A ROOT CANAL! Are you f******  kidding me? The tooth that you just worked on and put a crown on, now needs a root canal! This is just f****** great!

Apparently when she worked on my tooth, she killed it and it is now dead. In total this stupid tooth has cost me $550.00. That I do not have. A root canal is $198.00 which is better than I expected I guess I should be thankful for that. So I am having that done on Monday. Lucky me!

I think someone put a curse on me!

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